Just ranting

2012-03-01T18:59:00.002+08:00

how do i put it in words?

I miss you, i miss what we were in the past.

but it's all in the past already.

2012-01-30T15:04:00.002+08:00

overslept today~
was suppose to wake up by 8, but guess what ?
i woke up at 2 .__.
okay don't care.
still quite tired,
gonna rest abit more first before i head home~
and yes, thanks Marvyn, for lending me your PSP. :)))

2012-01-29T03:22:00.002+08:00

trying to be happy,
trying to have more faith in God.
trying to be strong.
trying to stop being so dependent.
trying to let you go and wish you all the best.
trying to be more easily satisfied.
trying to live my life.
trying to stop believing in a fairy tale called 'Love' anymore.
trying to grow up.
trying to be smarter.
trying to be matured.
trying to curb my temper.
trying to be better.
trying to live better.

2011-11-20T15:36:00.003+08:00

there're so many things i want to say.
i have a tumblr, a facebook, a twitter,
i could've just rant every shit out.
but after thinking again,
some words are better left unsaid.
it doesn't even have anymore significance left.

my so-called 'best friends' found some other people as their 'best friends'
apparently, both of them keep in contact w each other,
needless to mention behind my back,
cos i don't have any rights to command them and say they have to tell me
they're meeting each other every single time they meet up.
left out, what else ?

yes i am a loser, an unworthy friend,
i get into trouble every single time and expect people to
wipe my ass up for me,
i'm immature.
so be it, go ahead w/o me.
what are friends and who need them ?
i definitely don't need.

2011-10-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

yo blog, it's been so long. HAHAHA

been a really good girl lately~
so proud of myself.
less clubbing, stay at home all day,
nua w boyfriend and some random drinking sessions w his friends.
save money~ HAHAHA

here playing LAN w marv and his friend,
keep dying in both L4D and CS )):

2011-09-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

thanks for making me smile.
i love the way you make me feel.
don't let go of me ever alright, baby.

2011-08-02T02:23:00.006+08:00

i can't stop laughing while looking through my tumblr!!

hahaha. definitely make my night la !

for every one who's in a bad mood,

try this

or this,/a>

or this

or you can even go to mine (((:

HAHAHA I STILL CAN'T STOP LAUGHING.

2011-07-05T13:08:00.001+08:00

Guess who I'm gonna blog about on this boring afternoon ? :D

Yes, yes yes YES,

congratulations, lam pa sai kang diaper yao. HO HO HO

IT'S YOU :D

loser diaper boy!

Heard from my friend that you're long hair and untidy now ?

omg what has become of you ??

like seriously.

bet you must be looking like a ghost now,

or else how would my best friend be so shock !

heard that you scolded her vulgarities like 'fuck you' ?

fuck you back loser !!

and after you visited my mao mao,

heard that u still sms su yi to tell her about it ?

exactly till when, are you going to stop pestering us for fuck's sake ?

give me a date, diaper !

when are u gonna leave us alone ?

even if u saw any one of us on the street,

can pretend never see and just walk away not ?

Zzzz

What kind of stupid logic is that ?

see ah mao so poor thing that's why buy a bag from her ?

We don't need it hor ?

It's not like her boss will dock her pay just cost she sold one lesser bag LOL

keep your money for your diaper la please.

we want nothing more to do with you hor !

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE

2011-06-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

Dear Su Yi and Li Xuan,

Hello friends :D

It's been 3 years ! HAHAHA

Thank you for promising you won't leave,

and keeping that promise. :)

We quarreled, we had fights, we argued,

we ignored each other,

we shared Yong Tao Foo together,

we celebrated festives together.

Drunk and vomit together,

clubbing together, although Su Yi can't go with us anymore due to some reason Zzz.

msn and face book bitching together.

Spam call people together.

Try new stuffs, and get bored together.

But most importantly,

we never got tired of each other.

It's funny how we never run out of topics to talk about.

It's funny how this 2 special girls can let me totally be myself in front of them.

It's funny how they knew my differences and imperfections,

and still find me absolutely amazing.

It's funny how they would be there just when I needed them most.

It's funny how when every one else left, they stayed on.

Even people whom I thought will never leave, left, like CY.

This year 2011, has been a real hard year for me.

Scary things happened,

shit happens one after another, blows after blows,

normal people would have freaked out,

but thanks for not leaving me in the lurch when I needed you guys most.

I'm sorry I made you guys cried for me.

I'm sorry for letting you guys worried so much for me at that period of time.

That's the hardest part, certainly the lowest part too, of my life.

And I'm glad I found both of you.

Thank you for pulling me up at my lowest,

and smile with me when it's finally over.

I'm sorry that your boyfriend hate me,

I'm sorry that I always pull you to club with me, even when you don't feel like going.

Thanks for always giving in to me,

even when my request is really too over some times.

We were really busy with our life recently,

but despite being busy,

thanks for making some time out to meet each other,

I simply love you guys when you put in an effort to keep the dying conversation alive.

I never get tired of your jokes,

although you keep repeating them,

I never fail to laugh my ass out each single time you say them.

I remembered when we had no money,

and I feel like drinking,

we would dig out every single cent we find on us,

just so we could buy a bottle for me.

You guys would always accomodate to my unreasonable request.

Thank you for bearing with all my craps.

I will be here for you too.

I will be your listening ear when you want to vent frustrations,

I will be your shoulder when you're tired.

I will be your valentine's if you've no date.

I will go down all the way to meet you, just give me a call.

I will be there whenever you need me.

I will not leave, I will always be here.

Because we don't simply stop loving someone when we wake up.

This friendship is simply awesome,

thanks for loving me, and accepting who I really am.

my wild imaginations, my non-logical ideas, my crazily funny family members.

Thanks for accepting me to be me.

I love both of you a lot a lot a lot.

Both of you are the best thing that ever happened to me in my life.

P.S. still gotta say,

even when I'm left with the last option,

I will not hurt you like how that ugly dinosaur bitch hurt her girlfriend,

I will not do that to you, I promised both of you that. :)

2011-06-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

Went to visit my sister earlier on.

guess every body has someone dearest to them,

that's already not with them anymore.

it's been 6 years,

yet every time I'm back here,

the same kind of feelings still remain,

and I wish she was here with me.

I don't want to burn anymore incense and joss,

I wish she was here, right here in front of me.

if she was right here in front of me,

I don't know what I'll do,

maybe give her a hug.

I don't know what else I can do better at,

but I'll treasure every minute with her.

instead of missing her,

I would appreciate very much,

I hate this kind of sadness,

fucking gonna bug me for life.

damn.

2011-06-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

Hi blogger, I'm back.

Thanks for being here for me.

Sincerely, Marcia.